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has it already been a year? it seems like yesterday that we made superhero costumes for halloween.
for the past few days, i have been trying to figure out the best way to describe the year without sounding too confessional or impersonal, which of course leaves room only for the inaccurate or unsatisfying. giving this fact consideration, i would have to say that 2007 has been a trying year, a year of a heavy heart and certain denouement. my father is especially melancholy tonight. he says nothings the matter but i know that it’s because he misses his mother, that he wishes that she could have joined us at the dinner table for new years eve tonight.
for me, 2007 was the sound of pages turning too fast. it was the inevitable reevaluation of what the present would come to be. it was saying ‘so long’ (not good bye) to the comfort felt in the presence of loved ones. and it was a ‘so long’ that broke my heart.
people dismiss sorrow and grief as negative energies but i think they’re also important because they make you realize that you cared about something or someone that was important to you. they come hand and hand with love, really; you feel sorrow and grief because you loved. it was that kind of year for me and i’m okay with it. i still have the blues when i wake up, but i’m happy that i loved. every ‘so long’ i’ll say will keep me connected as long as i remember, and i think i’ll be remembering. sorrow is love is goodbye is one.
before things get even more self-indulgent, i should mention that there has been some definite good times. i haven’t forgotten them. i think about them all the time. and we all know how it feels to think about good times; equal parts nostalgia, heartache, and joy.
3 more hours until 2008. soon i’ll say ‘so long’ to the year that was 2007 and say ‘hello 2008, you’re quite the looker!’ i’m looking forward to the new year and i hope you’ll be there to make it a great one. won’t you join me?
i’ve got a tree to grow.